Jovi! Happy birthday (a little late on your blog)! Of course, we sent you birthday wishes on the real day. I still can't believe you would be 11 months... and that your first birthday is just around the corner. I got the March Parent's magazine in the mail the other day... it had an entire section about planning your baby's first birthday. Needless to say, that was heartbreaking. How I wish you were here... how I wish I was busily planning your big ole' girly first birthday bash... I wish you could have eaten cake. Would you have loved it?! I hate that I can't think of what you'd look like... that to me you'll forever be a 16 week old baby. My 16 weeker... but you'll never surpass that age in looks in my eyes. What have you been up to in Heaven lately? I'm sure you are having lots of fun. We sent balloons up to you and your angel friend, Owen, the other day. Did you get them?
I miss you so very much and of course, can't wait for the day I get to come and see that pretty face and sweet lil smile. You are missed more than I could ever say... I love you to Heaven and back.
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"I will exalt you, O Lord, for you lifted me out of the depths."
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What a beautiful letter to your daughter. She is gorgeous, and knows she was surrounded by love.
ReplyDeleteOh, I remember the first birthday. Ayden's first birthday was 3 days after the birth of our 2nd son. It was a whirlwind day as we had to take Collen to be tested for jaundice and I was new to bfing. Amidst all the craziness, I was fully aware of the heaviness of that day. As usual, though, the anticipation of the day was worse than the actual day. I remember his (would-be) 11th month being a low month leading up his 1st birthday. Praying for you as I know exactly what you're going through and all of the emotions involved. I love reading about Jovi and love how you continue to express your love for your baby girl. They may not be here physically, but we never stop being their mother.
ReplyDeletePS - that picture of her is just too stinkin' cute. My heart breaks for the absence you feel daily.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you sent her some balloons! I always find some peace in that! Love the picture! She is adorable!
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