I know his question was completely innocent... that's the thing. It breaks my heart that he thinks you only get new babies when previous babies go to Heaven. It breaks my heart he has to know babies go to Heaven at all. He doesn't know that babies can live and you can still get a new one, even though the sibling is still here. I almost wrecked the car when he said this... but then had to remind myself- he thinks it's normal. I explained to him that we had to pray to Jesus that this baby could stay on Earth and grow big to play with him and maybe when the baby is big and still living here, mommy and daddy could still give him a brother even though baby Lila was still alive. So he says...
"Jesus, please let baby Lila get big to play with me." Then waits a few moments and says...
"He said, Yes!"
Insert sobs here.
His child-like and blind faith inspires me to have the same kind of faith.
"Now the just shall live by faith; but if anyone draws back, my soul has no pleasure in him."
Hebrews 10:38
I am so sorry that you guys have had to go through this. What an innocent thought that Cash has to think that is where babies go :( I can only imagine how that broke your heart. He will get SO MANY years with precious Lila and he can have a brother later too :) You are a strong mommy...I admire your strength everyday <3
ReplyDeleteHe can come have brother time with Jack and our new one, as long as you share Lila with me :) Sweet Cash. xoxo
ReplyDeleteLove this. As hard as I imagine it was to hear, I love that you don't keep anything from him. You're honest, you explain...and I love that he gives you faith that everything will be okay.
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